Love,pain,sunset,beautiful,single,moment
Tonight,
he told me something I’ll never forget
he shed a light on a darkness I knew not of
he let my heart break along with his
and for a single moment I think I could feel his pain.
A pain that I can’t relate to.
It forced any words that came to mind to the back of my throat
my breath
held them there
knowing that nothing I could say
could ease the suffering.
So I wrapped my arms around his broad shoulders
held him tight
hoping that maybe I could squeeze the pain right out of him.
I don’t think I squeezed tight enough.
I could feel him tremble
his breath quivered in my ear
and for a single moment I think I understood.
All I want to do
is melt into
his body
because somehow wrapping myself around him
isn’t quite enough.
I want to swim through him
become one with waves of crimson red
find all the bad, all the pain, all the hurt
and replace it with my warmth.
Tonight,
I realized how much he means to me
what an influence he has been
in me becoming me
how his life impacted mine
how his life impacts mine
how important he really is to me
what a necessity
he has become.
Tonight,
I realized what loving someone really means
how it feels to be passionate with another human being:
raw.
It’s about complete and total trust
being totally vulnerable and exposing a weakness you’ve never shared before
it’s about allowing the person you love to tear you wide open
and letting them, not just take a peek, but explore what is inside.
It’s about permission
giving and asking for it
there is always some permission in love.
It’s about letting the person you love
love you back.
This I learned in the darkness of the night.
Only he could show me such a light
and I’ve never been more excited
for the next sunset to fall.