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I was crying one night and I was crying because I didn’t understand how to cure my pain. You told me something that night, you told me, “You can’t fight for everyone.” and thats when I realized… I can’t fight for everyone. I always believed that I had to fix problems, and that I had to make things right and that it was my job to cure the pain people confided in me. I believed I was a medicine and when I couldn’t cure the pain I believed I failed. You told me something else that night, you told me, “Sometimes people need to fight for themselves.” and then I had a thought and that thought changed something in me.
I am not a medicine. I am not a cure. It is not my obligation to heal and most importantly; no one expects me to be.
You told me I can’t fight for everyone and the first thing that came to my mind was: why not? And I wanted to ask you that but I didn’t ask you that because the answer beat me to it. You told me that sometimes people need to fight for themselves.
I listened to you and I thought about what you told me and after I thought about what you told me I said, “How else would people learn?” and you said, “Exactly.”
When people can’t fight for themsleves it’s a sign of weakness on their part, but when people fight other people’s battles for them what’s that a sign of? I think it might be just as weak. When people fight battles for other people, they’re taking away opporitunities to learn, to gain experience and to get stronger.
You told me that sometimes the best thing you can do for someone is to just listen, to just.. be there and I think you’re right. You told me I was special.
I told you that I was lost and that I was scared and you told me that was Ok.
I’m unsure about a lot of things in my life but one thing I am completely sure about is the love I feel for you.
You told me you love me.
I believe you.
I love you too and I wonder
if you believe me.
You told me sometimes people need to fight for themselves and so I here I am; fighting.