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Planes were always meditative for Ebony Forsyth. They rumbled and shook until she felt her skin peel off into a new creature ready to explore the foreign tastes of new soil. She closes her eyes and tries to let herself shed her skin but her stomach protests with strange acrobatics. This expedition is different. This time the two seats next to her are filled with strangers instead of her parents. Ebony has completely left the familiar crib of her hometown, the protective bars formed from stretching mountains. As the wheels touch down onto the runway she is officially alone. She…

Ungrown woman walking tall Walking along streets flushed with unnamed entities who’ve been here days and nights and lifetimes long common as the clambering of feet the thrush of traffic the endless directions to be pursued An ungrown woman here - childhood spirit regarded, safe-guarded with womanly retrospect - the fringes of her tampered by daytime drunks then, those hardened city folk: stiff faced, collars upturned ice cold as city cement sickly with October frost The sleep refused scenes hidden in forbidden crevices simple nooks of the wide city attended by the drifting, listless, party hardened souls of those engrossed…

You are liquid nitrogen, Me, I came to close, You took my heart into your hands, And then you froze it cold, Now I face sleepless nights, Fear of my own reflection, And now I am on my knees, Begging for some redemption, You are liquid nitrogen, I should have known from the start, The second that I got too close, My conscience fell apart, Now I cannot bear the thought, That venom in my skin, I staged a war against myself, A war I cannot win, I am liquid nitrogen, Do not get too close, I will tear you…

Her hands run through my hair, I start to freeze. In this moment it’s more than I can take, more than I can do to fake; this smile. I open my mouth to take a breath, I find corona rushing through me like liquid courage, it shoots and misses and words escape me, all the things I wanted to say are gone, leaving me sitting like a child, just waiting. I can’t look you in the eyes right now, I don’t even remember your face, paintings that escape me too hold more value, tacky wall paper is my savior, it…

Love is like the sun
when we’re having fun
shining from my Heart.

Being with you
is what I like to do
when things start to fall apart.

But when we put the pieces together
we get best friends forever
and that’s the best part.

Because friends are friends
loyal and true
I’m glad that I have a friend like you.

so this is the deal I woke up one morning and I knew I wouldn’t heal this pain I have it’s never ending and forever going going going going you know like that little pink bunny the one that keeps on going and going going going so. this is the deal I woke up this morning remembering last night do you remember last night? proper introductions ok here’s the deal something happened this morning I couldn’t stop thinking of you your face your hands your touch you. this is a new you a different you a better you not the…

Fallen up a tree and into the sky I am now lost among the clouds running from the thunder right into the lightning. I’m so lost with myself I know not where to go. Memories pull me along, subatomic speeds with part of me left. I’m lost without you. God, your hand is all I held and now I“m falling through it all, back to the beginning I will start again. Wrapped within your arms I will not lose my way. It is with you and like sheep I will follow, a corpse without a mind I will have nothing…

This is the way the world works son. The missiles come and the bombs will fall. Smashing the earth into the rubble it already was. Discriminating against the suns love for you and I. The sun does not discriminate, though some believe it may. As they also believe it will someday die. I once was a lepor, was blind and could not see. I once was many things, things I never thought I could be. You look so smart, are you failing too? Maybe you could lend a hand. Or maybe even two, can I have your arm as well?…

As I sit in the water and contemplate the beauties around me how they strut and flourish my jealousy stirs and bubbles inside though I know that it is no use for my feelings to unwind I cannot see what you see and I cannot feel the quarrels inside your mind I sit and reach for the lights in our sky and I wonder if I shall ever see again if my eyes will not grey over and if my fingers will stay strong but I am falling and bending in half you stay unfocused in my view and I…

Need
pour
gulp;

Need
pour
gulp;

Stumble
spill
walk
stagger
balance
drain
continue;

Yell
scream
throw
hit
bellow
trip
fall
done.

Repeat.